Mr. Goss Assignments =]

Location: Gowanda, New York, United States

I'm simple, yet VERY complicated

Monday, January 22, 2007


These are the two other blogs I have on this site. Check them out. It's just ramblings of rambles but it's something to make you think, or laugh either way you'll have fun!


~Melissa Anne

Community of Learners

One of the tasks Mr. Goss has asked of us was to go and look through other students blogs. This i have done. Quick and scanning. I'm not at home and i'm in a careless mood. So far i have seen nothing of interest to me. Therefore leaving me to believe that I myslef am writing about nothing. This was such a good plan to me in the beginning, but now i start to people actually can about what peopel are saying? Or are they really just doing this for the grade?
I would say that most are doing this for the grade, and only the grade. I'm doing this because it makes me think, makes me wonder why, makes me want to know more. When i write these blogs a pull something out of myself i never expect. Like i am another person writing this, when indeed i know it's truly me. Crazy outbursts like these is what i live for. A part of life that i adore. So i shall stop now and maybe take more time to look at peoples blogs....maybe i'll read everyones. Depends on how bored i am tonight :/

~Melissa Anne

This Is The New Sh*t!!

So I begin a new year of my life. 2007. I would have to expect the best out of this year as i do every year. Undoubtedly though i will be hurt, suffer from loss, and be confused from past experiences.

Last year i lost 2 people close to the same month.

My mother turned 50, but health wise seems 80.

My best friend became pregnant.

My 2 year relationship ended horribly.

I was demoesticly assulted (by my ex)

The year just couldn't have been better!!!

As this year begins, i worry. I'm a senior (obviously), but one of my subjects i MUST have....i have a 4 as a grade. I haven't turned a single thing in and i honestly don't care. All i did was the major project. Sad and i should be worried, but when this new quarter comes around i'll be able to take it again *sigh*. At least i have this 3rd chance to do this. I just HATE government.
My ex is back in my life........i don't know how to handle this. I'm lost with emotions. I hate him so and love him at the same time. I'm not really sure which i feel more...hate or love?
My only remaining relatives (that are important to me and give a damn about my family) is my Grandpa and my Aunt Shirlee. My Grandpa is 83 i believe, my Aunt Shirlee is 80.
I think i would be more upset wiuth the passing of my Aunt then my Grandpa. He was married into the family and he's the only male figure i had. As soon as my Grandmother passed we stopped going and seeing him so much. It use to be every wednesday. It turned into every other week, to every other month, to just never seeing him till chirstmas. He remarried. Bonnie. I put up with her for the sake of him. He at least has someone to take care of him now. She's he's 3rd wife.
My Aunt Shirlee is the last remaining of the 3 sisters. Aunt Edna, Grandma, and Aunt Shirlee. I always loved her and my Grandmother...i loved Edna too but it was never like these two. When she died I wasn't surprised. Uncle Johnny had died 2 months before her and she was living for nothing i believe. Uncle Joe died before the both of them. Cancer. Aunt Shirlee still writes his name in cards. But instead of Uncle Joe she writes "Angel Uncle Joe". She loved him........a love i wish to have one day.
But as the days continue i worry that when i get home my mother will tell me either by phone or face-to-face that she has passed. That my grandpa has left us. One more death i must undure.

I'm sorry i'm getting carried away in death and my past.

Back to what really matters. Graduating and after school. I hope to graduate. As of lately i feel i won't. I'm slacking, not motivated enough to even care. I'm going to try and work my butt off. I need to get up and realize how important to me, for my life.
After this school year is over (depending on the outcome) i'm going to visit California and decide if i want to live there. Make my life there with my friend Sarah. I'll look for jobs while i'm there let people know i'm looking and willing. If i do move there i will try and get a job right off the bat, before i even move there i should unsure i have a place of imployment. That would be the best thing. If that works out i will save money and use what need be for the rent and food. Then save the rest. After a year i will become a "Califorinan" and be able to get aid from the state for College.
If i decided not move then i will continue to try and get a job maybe try to move out of my house with someone. I really don't care i just want a room, a place to myslef. Something i've never had. College isn't a big part of my life at the moment. Maybe in a few years once i figure out what i truly want to be.

This year is a new beginning of my life, and i hope that i enjoy every minute of it.

~Melissa Anne

Monday, December 11, 2006

Gaining Sight

In the Buffalo News a 65 year old woman was given the chance to see. The article link is above.

I'm happy for Patricia. She's been in the dark for so long. The only thing that bothers is me that she wasn't fully blind. She could see images but not clearly. What a tease that is! I'd rather be BLIND. Now she can see her children. All 12 of them, though 2 have passed on there are pictures of her babies. In basic words, I'm happy that she got this chance to see.

Would You Donate Your Organs?

I wouldn't due to the fact that they aren't really in the best of shape. My kidney's cause me problems. I wear glasses, my eyes aren't really all that good. My heart is of a fat person. It doesn't know the meaning of exercise. I highy doubt any other part of my body is useful. So I'm doing them a favor by saying NO.

How about you? Would you donate?

~Melissa Anne

Thursday, November 09, 2006


Yesterday Mr. Goss pointed out about how we use the word "Faggot" in the wrong text.

Mostly people use it to hurt someone.

"You're such a faggot John!"

Lately I've realized that people use a lot of words out of text.

"Wow that's so gay!"
"You're a retard!"
'This is retarded."

Sometimes i wonder if people really know what those words REALLY mean. Society is getting worse with their language. It's quite sad. Too many people swear in this world and i am one of the many to bless this world.
I school i try my hardest not to "swear". Hell, damn, and sh*t are the main ones that i am having a problem with. Fu*k is the one word i learned to control myself on. The others (except sh*t) i don't really consider swearing. But for some people it's a horrible and wrong thing to say.
I noticed that when people usually take these words (retard and faggot) out of text they are complaining about something. Classes with essays "aww this is gay" and such other things. I myself use "gay" but i know i shouldn't. No other words form in my head.

I wonder if anyone else ever took this into consideration.....

~Melissa Anne

Monday, October 30, 2006

Technorati Profile

Let's get the ball rolling!

My classmates and I need to get our blogs out and about. I believe this Technorati will help in the process!


~Melissa Anne

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Life In 4D...What's This?

Tralfamadorian's in the book Slaughter-House Five can see life in 4D.

Excatly what they can do I honestly don't remember. But I do believe they see life from beginning to end. Explaining as moutains of life. From point A to B, Success to failure, and Life and death.
No surprise in life and can even manipulate time.
I wouldn't find this fun. To know everything and to not have something to look forward to. There's no adventure. There's no SURPRISE! Come on! What is life without suspense, without random moments? I like my life the way it is. MYSTERIOUS!!!

~Melissa Anne

Oh Poems Where Art Thou?

We Wear the Mask
by Paul Laurence Dunbar

We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,--
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be overwise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!

We put on a show for people when we are sad. When we are/feel alone. We wear masks to avoid emotions, attention, sorrow, etc. "To thee from tortured souls arise." If you take just that and think about it, people that cover their REAL self with a mask are only tortured souls. If you're not yourself how can anyone know you? How can you say you have friends when they probably have only seen the mask you wear? Heard the mask you wear. Watched the mask you wear. I only have this to say - Be yourself. If you aren't accepted then they are not a friend in the first place.

~Melissa Anne

Head-On : Apply directly to your web page

I have seen this commercial over and over. It's annoying, simple, and intriguing. You think about "Does this product really work?" My mom in fact was thinking about going and buying it from Rite-Aid for me. I always have headaches and she's ACTUALLY thinking about buying it. When she does I'll laugh, but if I try it and it actually works....I don't now how I'll react.
The commercials are annoying but they make you wonder.
It's a great commercial.
It's also something to annoy the heck outta someone.
Who could forget head-on????

~Melissa Anne

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Miss Mary O'Hare All Dressed in Black!!

"You'll pretend you were men instead of babies, and you'll be played in the movies by Frank Sinatra and John Wayne or some of those other glamorous, war-loving, dirty old men. And war will look just wonderful, so we'll have a lot more of them. And they'll be fought by babies like the babies upstairs" (Slaughter-House-Five, p. 14).

In your blog, please respond to the above quotation. Do you agree or disagree? Do movies help promote war? Were they more likely to promote war in the past. Please explain your position.

I honestly don't think that they "promote" war, but more like encourage. They show war heroes and how you'll come back a hero and hero blah blah blah like it matters. I don't think people really REALIZE that the people portraying the "heroes" are in like their late 20's MAYBE early 30's and they are playing 18 year olds, at least in the movies. In the books on the other hand are different. An author is using their ability with words. I highly doubt anyone puts that into proportion.
Young men/women get drafted and of course they are scared, but they can't let it get to them or else they ARE dead.
Certain movies and books I would say promote and encourage war. I only think that someone who is easily brainwashed will actually believe in what a movie or book tells them. Which I've found out lately is MOSTLY all of the younger generation. Plus they will take it into their own hands and do research. But that doesn't make any sense does it? The information is right in front of us...or is it? Honestly no minds of their own and they must be told what to believe in.
I don't know where I really stand. These are just my thoughts.
Hope this makes some sense.

~Melissa Anne

Monday, October 02, 2006

~Rat Poem~

Shooting Rats at the Bibb County Dump
by David Bottoms

"let them crawl for all they're worth"

I guess I could say that I loved this poem. If that's what makes Mr. Goss happy? I honestly need more time to actually understand this poem, but I need to do my work :/ So my thoughts for now are below.

These guys are drunk, stupid, and think "Hey it's a lower kind of breed. Who cares?" They don't have to go through the pain or the death so how does it bother them? The men and rats have something in common. Heartless. Pathetic. Just like their lives.

~Melissa Anne